and in despair, i bowed my head

a few short days ago

a simple snapchat sent

about being busy and tired and sad

over the people that have died just this month.

in the presence 

the unsettled feelings

the disorientation

of feeling helpless and 

really

truly

scared.

this year has been anything 

but

easy.

and I rarely rarely cry,

but standing in the pharmacy line

uncomfortable with the day 

the situation

the place

Loretta Lynn was singing 'white christmas'

over the radio.

a hopeful, sentimental and to me, a sad song.

and the people and their faces

their tiredness

and mine.

and what a heavy heavy heavy h e a r t.

and my eyes were suddenly brimming.

oh 

how I need Emmanuel.

this season

more than any. 

( r e j o i c e . . .  r e j o i c e )

for I know He is here

in it a l l 

let us REJOICE for He is here and He hears us and isn't that such a 

COMFORT

WOW.

hello you lovelies.

I have been very busy with music and work and music work and honestly I would have it any else. 

but please keep my family in your prayers.

and my heart.

and my mind.

what are some ways I can pray for you all in this Christmas season/new year?

I am learning that community/prayer/His word/deep breaths and smiles are so so essential.

lets all take a deep breath and open his word and pray and smile at others. 

 let Him give us hope and LIFE because without Him, we have none.